Had a lunch appointment with my fellow colleagues at Swissotel. It was a last minute lunch arrangement on the day before by K. Six person in all... Lunch was intensive which I didn't really enjoy.
I am simply speechless. Today was a day with a huge, round and perfect moon up in the clear sky. It was a bad day, as I have had the urge to go over to East Coast park to study and enjoy the nice view. But, based on my last blog posting~ I have decided to be good and attend class so i dumped that idea and left office early. With that, I had also plan to go over to Starhub with the SCV box to terminate my cable TV plan once the lesson ended to save an additional trip for Dad.
I have promised and set my mind to study hard and put in my utmost effort this semester. No more truant, no more excuses nor dozing off in class. It all seems so easy by the mention of it... However, it is just tough and almost impossible. It is already the second week of a new semester, and I have only attended one lesson out of six. I just missed my Accounts tutorial... I'm a gone case if I continue in this manner.
Been ages since I stepped onto the grounds of Sentosa island, with a good tan. Did a quick grocery shop, with biscuits, Tuna, tit-bitsand last minute purchase of a beach towel at Vivovity GIANT.
It was a day of shopping with S after shopping and hanging around after work to kill time. Meeting the girls at 8.30pm and plently of time to kill... Arranged to meet at Vivocity and head to St James for a night of partying. To sum up, it was night of enjoyment with great music and bonding... Everything was nice but L got drunk, quite badly and out of control. Left early and sent her back home and finally got her onto her bed after a big hu-ha. Understood that she's very stressed over work and relationship, so I don't blame her. Hoped that a night of partying, losing oneself, throwing and thunder-storm with some dead-sleeping, will make her feel better and get back to reality.
After what has happened the past few weeks, I am really not in the mood to celebrate my birthday. I am not feeling well, been feeling giddy and felt like fainting and thus, was on MC on this fateful day; 9 January 2008. How undesirable... There was also a strong urge to escape from reality, I had no wish to face nor strength to overcome it, Yes~ I am still affected by the previous incident.
I've made a very costy mistake, of $600.00. I have learnt my lesson and will remember this in my heart. No matter how truthful, honest, upright you are OR how good your memory is, it is always falliable when it comes to topic with money. I trusted that person so much, so much so that I do not know that a table can be flipped just like that. Trust is no longer valid here, but black and white always work. I do not know why, but I am very upset. It's not the lost of money, but the lost of trust. It has happened once when I first joined the company, a bad case of losing trust which hurts me directly which did not bite me directly. But again, it happened once again! I am being hurt and biten; and i mean RIGHT ON THE SPOT!
January - Started the month with lots and mixtures of feelings. I admit, I'm overwhelmed at work and I'm burnout. To the extend that I no longer know what I am doing and at the stage of giving up. I started off with a clear goal, knowing where to move on, what to achieve and how to attain everything. It has been a year plus and different things happened daily and different experiences are gained every other day. Motivation dies off, passion disappeared and the energy in me dipped as fast as the winter temperature. This is not good, I know and I have been trying hard to stand up and get back on my feet. However, no matter how much I do, how hard I work to get the things done, how positive I think and how I tried to persuade myself, I just can't do it. The things that are coming in are thrice as fast as each outgoing task. I no longer know how to continue and what are the things that I can do to revive every other things.
Time flies and it's 1 Jan 2008 in a blink! Bidding goodbye to '07 and welcoming '08 has been a tough job for me. It is never easy to start afresh... Many told me to look forward to a better year, take a step forward to the brand new year, and leaving all my worries and unhappiness behind. I will definitely try hard to do so, but am I able to?! 2007 has been a fruitful year as well as a tiring year for me. As tiring as i wonder if I would still have the energy to move ahead with all the well-wishes. That is the year that I have gained lots of new experiences, tons of first time in my life, and countless ups-and-downs! It was never easy to move on and I'm really glad that, no matter what I've gone through, best advices and support would reach me whenever I'm deep down in the pit. No matter who you are, I'd really like to say a word of sincere "Thank you!" to you. Without you guys, I might have given up, I might have not stood up and I might be still dreaming. Thanks all! Really appreciated for all the advices and hands that have been reached out to me!