Voices from Within

Genting - Part 2/2

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Some of us woke up at 10plus for breakfast, which was a tough journey ar!

We no longer wanted to eat the non-tasty breakfast that we had previously. Aunt suggested to go outside and look for food instead. Hunted around, got a few wrong places and finally reached the 'White Coffee cafe'. It was already lunchtime...

I had 'Bo Lou Bao' with ham and cheese while darling called for Curry chicken with bread that came as Curry chicken noodles. Zzz.

Aunt went to the 'Interchange' coffee shop and bought 'Century Egg porridge' for Travis and duck rice to share which was quite good.

Headed back to the Hotel for own activities before meeting at 3.30pm to take a shuttle bus down to the 'Mushroom' restuarant for late lunch.

Parents, Sis and Sis hubby - Genting Hotel's Casino

Brothers - Arcade

Myself and bf - Coax Travis to sleep / StarWorld Casino

Aunt family - Rest

Lunch at Mushroom place was good with main dishes like:

- Steam fish

- Pork knuckles

- Sweet and sour pork

- Mixed mushrooms

- Si Ji Cai (Vegetable)

- Cereal prawns

- Herbal Soup (Quite diluted)

- Sour plum and lime drink

Overall: Good with reasonable prices (SGD$150 for all of us)

Dad called to extend the time to go home from 6pm - 8pm as we ended lunch only at 5plus. We bought Travis to Hotel to rest as Sis and hubby went back to Casino for the last bet before we head for home.

Total damage:

SGD$300 (Expenses) + SGD$250 (Bus)

But I didn't spend the money, passed to parents and brothers for their expenses. My only expenses were for food that was fully subsidized by darling :)

Short weekend trip with family was really a good bonding, especially with Casino as mum doesn't like shopping. Travis, Andrew, Mum and Aunt family stayed on for another day, while the rest of us made the trip back home first.

There was a longgggggg traffic congestion at checkpoint, and luckily! We're on a bus and could go by the special lane. Yeah...

Reached home around 2am and got knocked off at 3.30am. There goes the holiday and work is just in a few hours... at 9am.

Sigh~

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 3:31 AM

Genting - Part 1/2 (Family)

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Mum booked a private mini-bus for 12 at $700. The driver came to our area and fetched us around 11pm before fetching Aunt at Beachroad.

Saves us the trouble from moving around as everyone was working on Fri :)

Travis first Passport stamp, and long journey bus trip to Malaysia

Journey to Genting was pretty smooth and we reached around 6am.

As rooms are only available at 3pm, we went to Casino and signed up for membership. Two cards were being issued immediately:

1. Membership card for discounts and food voucher rebate

2. Jackpot card (with photo) to play and claim winnings

We roamed around in the Casino but was pretty uncomfortable initially as the place was quite smoky. Sis and the children (below 21) were out there, hunting for place to settle down and good food.

Sis family and bro had 'Marybrown' for breakfast, but didn't look good. Dad, aunt and myself headed to KFC instead of Mac to try out something different but regretted. Should have taken the safer bet :(

Both Marybrown and KFC was bad! Expensive and not tasty.

- KFC 'big breakfast': Dried scramble egg, chicken patty with miserable bun & mashed potatoes.

- KFC Nasi Lemak wrap: Rice wrapped with Ikan bilis, egg and chicken

- KFC Chicken porridge: Watery porridge with shredded chicken

- Orange juice: Sweet sweet sweet

Hmmm.

We walked to Genting Hotel to explore the time as it's still early. All shops are still closed except for? Casino! Dad, darling and I went up to take a look as Casino at Genting Hotel is supposed to be bigger. Dad tried his luck in '3 cards'- the game and won back the breakfast money. Yeah...

Walked around, round and round till we got bored. Darling and I went back to Casino to find out more about the games and regulations. Bet and lost RM50 at the number guessing game. Got hungry and went to MacDonald for a Quarter Pounder meal - no longer available in SG :)

Tired Travis

Rooms are finally ready at 3.30pm after finishing the entire shopping complex and theme park. Dad and bros caught a nap before leaving for KL at 5.30pm. Journey to KL was long due to bad traffic and we took almost 2.30 hours to reach Chinatown.

Bus emitted a very strong diesel smell and broke down after 5mins!

The rest? Busy with photo-taking!

Everyone was so hungry and Aunt suggested the 'Zi Char' stall around the corner in Chinatown. We knew it was a bad choice as their prices are way high to earn tourist money. The service was really bad when they realized we are not in for a big meal. We only ordered the basic staple as we're more looking forward for roadside goodies. Yet we got the 'looked down' service standard for it! Damn... Rice wasn't even served after all dishes were up till we request for it.

Remarks: Bad! Food wasn't fantastic but super average and we were being charged RM2 for each bowl of rice, SGD$1!

Split ways for shopping after dinner... Almost 1/2 of the shops were closed by then. Think due to policemen checks as a group of policemen are spotted in the cross-junction. Bf had beef noodles by the roadside and the beefball was kinda good, Q!

Took our bus back to Genting around 11.30pm and was knocked off at 3am... Zzz!

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 2:57 AM

Genting Trip

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Away for Genting Trip with family, to be updated!

Date: 28 Nov- 30 Nov (Fri - Sun)

Who's on the list for our 1st group outing?

1. Mum

2. Dad

3. Sis

4. Sis Hubby

5. Nephew-Travis

6. Brother-Aaron

7. Brother-Andrew

8. Bf-Vincent

9. Myself

10. Aunty

11. Cousin

12. Aunty's maid

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:13 PM

Sis Birthday

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Joyous occasion one after another... lightens my mood. Whee~

We went for dinner after work at the usual old place: Fatty Restaurant, Opp Sim Lim Sqaure.

Travis in the Game (Totally ignoring us)

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 10:25 PM

Jogging @ ECP

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Finally, after the last run we had at ECP during Labour Day, CY and me did it again. But, the run was shorter then the previous due to cloudy weather.

Supposed to continue with a ride in the park but was worried it might get stormy. Decided to walk to Parkway Parade instead... Dear CY lost the way while leading and we ended up at the ex-Big Splash area.

With new restaurants, hangouts, outdoor booths etc...

By chance, we even get to hop on a shuttle bus to Parkway Parade at $1 each. Was so happy to know that there is a to-fro shuttle service!

Isn't it great?

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:30 PM

Memories

Packed my below 'the bed' mess today and saw many things. Memories flashes back from time to time. The photos, letters, cards and thoughts. Feeling was weird but good, felt better in some sense suddenly.

Changed my bed sheet and had a good sleep of 6 hours straight.

Oh, below the bed 'mess' turned out to be, the treasury lane...

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:00 PM

Thoughts, that ran wild

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Lots of things running through my mind but I can't say anything. Many things surfaced when I'm trying to make comparisons. Oh well, kinda good at times to just think of the past since I'm not supposed to be a distraction, can't speak but think.

Heck! Met Wendy to K-box to sing from 6-9pm for $20 with two drinks each at AMK Mac center. K-box service was like darn... How can they charge me $50.20 for a $50.14 bill, considering that I am already complaining about their services?

Worst is, I got all coins for a $1.80 change and the staff could giggle and turned and walked off immediately after not putting, by semi-throwing the coins on my hand. Didn't even paused to apologize nor wait a sec and only bothered to say, it's cashier's fault, not hers after I stared at her! Wondering if it's because she's a chi-na again...

Wendy if you're here, please support this entry :(

Met family for dinner for Di's birthday and bought a champagne cake. No champagne taste, but it was quite good, I thought.

The Cake

The Big Lighter

The Boys

The Family

Happy Birthday Drew, finally 15 years old already. Identity card time!

BF busy, very busy studying...
But, don't understand something...
What are we at times...

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:55 PM

Smile...

Whatever that happened, I'm still confused. I've no wish to think and just wanna be a little happier. I choose to let it be and 船到桥头自然直. Yeah?

I've attended 3 lessons out of 6 this week *happy*

But, under my dear CY influence. We skipped Marketing tutorial today. Guess we didn't want to end our Friday so sadly by ending school at 10pm and heading home straight?

Two aimless soul went around hunting for food and ate 'fake' Ramen for dinner. Zzzzzz... how unsatisfying. It's called 'banmen' （版面） not ramen. Oh well, China style :(

Having no plans, we checked the movies timing but none fits, how bored!

Went to take 'neoprint', and guess what? We used the entire decorating time for only 2 photos. The other 2 were left plain and time was up... sigh! But, the printout is nice and I think it's better to look simple and clean.

CY is totally admiring herself, with her own eyes and cuteness,zzz.
*Rolling my eyes*

No photo to be posted as she loved the photos too much and took it home.

Went to arcade and play 3 rounds of basketball game to kill time. Lousy CY, already complaining that her hands are aching, after... the 1st game.

I like the carefree feeling... it doesn't have to be long :)
BF is ignoring me and talking to his books :(

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 1:23 AM

Singing whole night long

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Plans before we part ways on Thursday's night was to wear something presentable the next day so that we can go out after work. Friday leh...

But, as i slept at 4.30am... I woke up so late and didn't bother to dig wardrobe for a good presentable outfit :p

Intended to go East Coast for some cycling, and learn how to blade but weather turned bad. Met CY at Liang court instead for dinner and singing.

We had Japanese cuisine for dinner at Liang court basement. Place was very crowded and we waited a while before we managed to get 2 seat by the corner. Food was not bad, I order Salmon Teriyaki Bento and portion was quite big for me yet I finished most. (Taste: 3.5/5) but expensive.

CY ordered what all others are having, Chicken Katsu curry rice, it wasn't really fantastic. (Taste: 3/5)

Menu (Partial)

Located: Liang Court, inside Basement Supermarket (Prominent Curry Rice stall)

Spent 2 hours singing at Partyworld and the bill came up to be >$50 for 2 person. Manager in charge said don't charge us for room as it's only available from 8-10pm, and will only charge for the compulsory snacks and drinks. Stupidddd... we just had dinner and didn't even finish the snacks :(

Continued the singing session at Int'l building at 11pm to meet May. Gave in halfway as was really too tired. Lost my enthusiasm and sorry gals, you guys got to excuse me as I slept late and woke up at 8.30am laaa...

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 2:02 PM

Sorting my mind

Friday, November 14, 2008

I can't sleep again.

Decided to use Sis's laptop to transfer photos from mobile via 'bluetooth'. Check out previous blogs for missing photos :)

While sending the files, I was kinda amazed by the technology. How can a photo be sent from a mobile to a laptop, through 'bluetooth' within secs. Man... how clever!

WARNING: This entry gonna's get lengthy.

Stop here if you don't wanna hear me whine.

'1st' day back at work after 3 days of nua-ing and recuperating at home. We talked about it, and tears dropped. Bloody useless, can't hold back tears. Think I can't take too much TLC and an overdose might kill... partly because I'm very confused. Damn... knew this coming 2 years back, too naive and forgot that there is nothing called 'forever'.

I guess, I just wanted to let go of everything and get a life.

I'm selfish and just wanna have a happier life while I can, can?

But I know it's not possible, it's my commitment...
I need to grow up... but I've got no wish to!

Didn't one get a job to achieve something?

Apart from pay, don't you wish for happiness, satisfatory and growth?

But how come one is never happy about the pay, always unhappy, always feels that the job is boring with slow growth?

Personnally, yes! Pay does matter but not the first priority. If not, those who know me, I'd have left the job anytime earlier with all sorts of super-covering. I see growth and job satisfaction. But the most important factor is I don't see or even feel happiness?

I don't feel good doing so many exits, and hearing everyone saying that they are unhappy with this, that... here there. It makes me feel really useless and why can't I do anything to aleviate their stress.

I hear different stories, complains and see frowns everywhere. People cursing and swearing, grumbling and saying how much one doesn't understand another. One affecting another and the cycle went on...

Where are the laughters that we used to have?
Where are the jokes that we throw each other at?
Where are the understanding that I first see?
Where are the every single little things that matters?

I am not giving up becuase I am overwhelmed.
I am giving up for I can't seem to make a difference and improve things.
Every single complains that I prevent makes me a whole load happier.
But whole load of complains make me singled out everyone...

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 2:27 AM

Mock Exam Schedule is out...

Finally, yes! I went to school today for the 'Org. Theory'. I went through the whole attendance list, and very bad... it goes "0 0 0 0 0 0 1 0 0 0 0 1" for mine and Ms. Ho.

So happy!!!

I paid attention in class cos the lecturer caught me going to lala land. Said weather's too good to snooze and posted the first question to me. Someone already answered, yet he still looked at me. Of cuz! I gave him the 'Don't look at me' stare.... Zzz... Got to pay attention as I kept quiet for the first questions followed by 2 wrong answers in a row. How could he not notice that I'm dreaming. Tough...

Topic today was: Power and Authority

1. What is power?
2. Do you get power to get authority, or authority to get power?
3. If you are the hiring body, you get surplus or cost if you have more patience?

Indeed, asking questions works in class.

Reason? I cannot remember what else have he taught apart from these 3 questions. Hmm.

Didn't step into campus for some time and saw the notice on the board with a shock...

Mock exam schedule is out, and I've only got 3 weeks to it. Zzzz!

We spoke, you opposed to what I proposed...
Sort of expected and appreciate the time you took for it.
Knew you cared and doing the best...
The other 60% comes from me but I no longer dare to.
I took a plunge once and I never enjoyed life...
What happens if I take another step forward and fell?

I know you will be there to hold onto...
I will not break but at most, be injuired.
Should I take the risk and believed that I'll not even be injuired?

I'm weak already...

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 1:12 AM

朋友，展翅高飞吧！

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Came across this article at zbW (早报周刊) dated 09 Nov 08.

Somehow, I find it enlightening and took a different light at things. It wasn't a short article, but half A4 page long of article in Chinese wordings.

I was attracted by the title and yes, I read it.

Right from the first word, till the last.

Something to share, and wonder if it applies to you too?

Summary:

”有时候解决难题的方法，就是简单地要求自己停在原地，重新开始。
你会发现挨过冬季，春天来了。”

More time for the whole story?

You caught me before I could escape.
You knew what I was thinking before I need to speak.
You know what will be proposed for I can't hide from you.

I appreciated for all that have been done, but my heart is affected.
It's cumulative.

Indeed, I can take it by stride, but it's like a shadow haunting me.
I need to walk out, step aside and relook at things.

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 10:38 PM

Can't get 'you' out of my head

Monday, November 10, 2008

Yawn... I slept at 4am last night.

And I can't get the event out of my head.

I am thinking about it every single minute...

I diverted my attention to playing games,

I diverted my attention to thinking what I will do during my off days,

I diverted my attention to counting sheep to bed,

But all of the above doesn't help. It just keep coming back...

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 12:36 PM

A series of unfortunate events

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Can't really remember who is the first but the series continues... the episodes continue with different climax. Are you guys getting bored of my blog? No choice, unless miracle happen and take my load off.

Oh GOD, I need a stop to it. Not because I am emotionally attached, but the humongous level of work and stress that I am facing. Ok, not from anyone. It's me... just stress coming from myself can. BOO!

I just went jogging, and it was a very very short run, only 1km I think. Followed by 30mins of Frisbee game with bf. One daddy and son was playing Frisbee too, but a bigger version! The uncle even threw to me for testing to verify that bigger Frisbee can fly better, as it is more stable. Ok Uncle, it's really better. But smaller one can train your throwing technique, throwing strength and managing of the wind direction though :)

No matter how, had a head of troubles off my mind for that moment but it came back faster than the next thunder roar once I step into the house. Damn!

Remember my previous post? The consequences for wetting someone's pillow, is to change the entire set of bedsheet. Which includes, washing and hanging dry of the 'dirtied' set lo. Zzzz....

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 9:04 PM

Final battle - you won

Results? It was determined by the email I received.

Thanks as per .... it hit the raw nerve, and allowed me to face the music.

This is the most classic email and I'll remember it for life.

I was right in front of the school's entrance, embracing myself to attend tutorial.
I was at a dessert stall waiting for CY, with a bowl of dessert as it's not a waiting area.
Received the most unexpected call from my dearest and broke down towards the end.
I left my sweet dessert into something salty behind I guess. Damn, wasted $$.
Hopped on a bus to AMK instead and there it goes, another lesson missed.
Call me emotional but I don't deserve this.

The many messages gave me reassurance
but, a chance to think through what I really want.

The last call/SMS did not help at all, it's not even good, let alone better
when one is already at the bottom of the pit.

My hands are still shaking, not of anger but resentment and fear.
I am fearful of what I do, and no longer have confidence in it.

To be frank, I'm living in denial and rejecting the truth.
We can't face the music, let those who are be with the player.

Thanks all who gave me the support when I was really really down yesterday.

Thanks CY for rushing down and making an effort to meet me, but I know your time are tied.

Thanks dear for letting me to wet your pillow but I can't tell you what happen, before I flood your bed.
Next time ba... when the time is ripe.

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 4:34 PM

Quizzes

Try it @ What Kind of Blogger Are You?

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.

If it happens, you blog it.
And you make it as entertaining as possible.

You may be guilty of over-sharing a bit on your blog,
but you can't help it.

Your life is truly an open book.
Or in this case, an open blog!

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Try it @ Are You Extremely Sensitive?

Your Sensitivity Score: 42%

As far as sensitivity goes,
you're a lot more in tune than most people.

You can't help but be touched by what's around you
- good and bad.

But when things do get really bad around you,
you are strong enough not to break down.

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 4:19 PM

Broke down

Friday, November 7, 2008

My persistence and positive note stopped at that moment...

I gave up. My hands shake, and heartbeat ran faster than I could count.

It wasn't once, twice nor thrice that I was bitten by you. There's a saying: Once bitten, twice shy... I used different approach every single time, it failed. (I'm a coward, and I'm staying away)

We can't get along and I don't blame you, this is expected and needed.

I'll only give up slowly, and wish you all the best. There's no point for me to be so hard on myself. Don't come running to me in future; after this, i won't care.

I'm sorry to run off but I can no longer get a grip of myself
I'm sorry to not be with you in the same battle field
I'm sorry to give up so fast without giving it another chance
I'm sorry to be afraid of falling and lose myself
I'm sorry to fall when I did said before, you can't fall before me
I'm sorry to have the thought but I can't stand by you anymore
I'm sorry to waste your time though I know you cared
I'm sorry to be incompetent for the things I do
I'm sorry... I just needed a happier life!

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 10:52 PM

Halloween + L Birthday celebration

Saturday, November 1, 2008

We met at 9.30pm at Vivocity and headed to Cafe del Mar for the party. It was a fun meet up initially... and laughed our hearts out.

But ended quite abruptly which we were not quite pleased as there are no explanations etc.

But HELL, it was Halloween...

Happy Birthday LLLL - Lee Liling Lincoln!

Photos are all not with me, that's all for now... be posted till the owner have it uploaded.

The song...was "Bleeding Love"

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 12:24 PM