Voices from Within

I'm on leave today, finally

Friday, March 27, 2009

Time always passess very fast whenever there is a deadline.

Work has been tiring, and I finally got to go on leave today. Wheeee!

Did quite a few things today and my off day was well spent. Only thing that was not in accordance to the plan was study. Opps... Promise, start tml. Anyone and everyone... don't disturb me k.

Everything was last minute and arranged on the bus journey to AMK. Fixed appointment for eyebrow threading, eye treatment @ ModernBeauty, 'tui' my leg and then... meet my girls at 7pm.

But... something crops up at work. Went back at 7pm and stayed through till 9pm. Sigh~

CY + Lin: Apologies for being late... Hoped you enjoyed the shopping :)
Dinner was great, at least we still met up after all the changes.

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 2:50 AM

Ouch!!!

"Never wait for things to happen first, pay attention before it does..."

In short, I was stubborn and refused to go TCM immediately after the injury. And now...I will need a longer time to recover. Sigh~

I only went to TCM after 1 week when I realized my feet is half blue-black-ed and numb. I really thought that I'm recovering as it didn't hurt anymore. But, I was wrong... there's internal bleeding which was not being attended to since day 1.

Then, I didn't go for follow up due to schedule till today.

I tried to run for bus over a short distance, like only 30m and it was strenuous. Got worried and went for 2ND 'tui'... today's visit was 'unbearable'. Pain can! My vein wasn't in the right position, which 'pulled' and affect my knee and thighs.

I think my endurance for pain has been quite good, but I was grinding my teeth non-stop. The more I frown, the harder she pressed. Brrrr... Seems like she's worried about the vein, but didn't explain much. Only said that it won't recover so soon.

No heels till I fully recovered and no cold drinks. Worst is, I'll need to follow up every alternate days for at least 5 more times now.

Ouch Ouch Ouch! and there goes more money...

BUT! I'll rather keep my ankle and continue to do sports.

Good news is, I've recovered from the allergy. No more ugly patch :)

CY, I know you sure gonna scold me after reading this post... I know la. okokok... but I won't persist for nothing, you know de.

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 2:32 AM

Speical day: 20/03

Friday, March 20, 2009

It was our... 7th Anniversary!

Didn't plan for anything in fact, everyday just passed like fighting war... BF said weekend instead but it does not matter much as it wasn't the first time that nothing was plan in advance. Last year, he was in China. No news, no nothing as well. This year... daddy came to office to fetch me to 'tui' my leg.

Finally can go TCM as I've got weekend for any bandages to be done :)

Went for dinner after that and Sis called to say that she's experiencing pain and going to the hospital le. Woah... Made our way back soonest and Sis brought Travis back to our place.

Good news rang around 11pm that she has already given birth to a baby boy! We have another gem in the house!

Fresh and healthy, slightly heavier than Travis. He-he... So next year, we won't have to plan anything for anniversary. As it'll bound to be a birthday celebration instead.

Sis and Jie-Fu, Congratulations!

Pending name to be decided... anyone got recommendation for a nice name beginning with 'T' for a baby boy? Got to be fast as Birth Certificate got to be done within 14days. 8 days have passed...

My darlings!

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 3:03 AM

I'm on medical leave

Monday, March 16, 2009

I did see a doctor on Fri night after the injury and slept the whole of Sat due to a horrible headache. Doc said that I only need to apply anti-inflammatory cream, bandaged it, take pain-killers and panadol if there's fever and it'll be better after a few days.

Doc said don't have to 'tui' and just need to make sure I bandaged it for support. Yeah, of course I'll follow as I cannot go 'tui' yet. Otherwise, I might have to bandage my ankle with the Chinese herbs etc. Which will mean that, I cannot attend WWS on Sunday. Not ideal at all...

Following what the Doc did, I applied the cream and re-bandaged it. It was cooling with a slight burning sensation during the night, which I thought it was normal. As it's not that pain, but just need to limp albeit.

BUT! It became itchy with the cotton gauze prints on my injured ankle. I thought it was the cream that got harden, and thus the imprints which couldn't be washed. It somehow got worst on Sun night with blisters and I went to another Doc. It was allergy....

I asked if my ankle was better if I need to 'tui', but same advice. Doc said, no pain means good news. Just need to let the swell part ease off slowly.

Oh man, how unlucky can I be? I've never had allergy before due to medications. Zzz!

End of the day, seek the right treatment early. Boo!

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 1:22 AM

Purple Sage: Wedding Workshop 2009

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Venue: National Museum of Singapore (The Salon)
Date: 15th March 2009 (Sunday)

It was a successful event, with everyone's hard work from day 1 of preparation, to closing of the WWS and of course, with more to come such as post event evaluation etc. It was kinda amazing to see how everyone is taking up initiative to work together by holding up to their own roles to complement and coordinate with each other. Whee...

Operations and Azalea did a really great job in the entire set-up which must have used up a lot of their brain cells. It was very pretty and nice. Kitchen also had a few new items in the menu like macaroon which were 'selling' like hotcakes, that I didn't get to eat. Anyway, we managed to hit the expected target at the very last minute, Hurray!!! Good job.

Whereas, I did not do much this time round due to my limping leg... Sat through at Reception for registration, goodies good and obtaining feedback.

More photos can only be uploaded when I have the time lo...

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 12:30 AM

Black black Friday, 13th

Friday, March 13, 2009

Ever wondered why we always say Friday the 13th, is an unlucky day?

I always knew Fri+13=Bad omen, but never really bother to find out more information about it. Yourself?

I've been spending almost every Fri+13 without much hindrance and the day passes by as it is. But, I've just had a terrible Friday, and of course, on the 13th.

Out of curiosity, I went online to Wikipedia to know more about, Friday the 13th. Believed it? Not really, but I'm blaming all my unluckiness to it.

- Thirteen is an unlucky no., as twelve is a sign of completeness. 12months, 12 hours, 12 zodiac - quite true ya?

- Friday is an unlucky day, as Jesus was crucified on that day.

Altogether, I knew I'm not in the right state of mind to work today, but didn't expect things to be that bad. Received a bad news that totally, 'amused' me, then I leaped forward when i missed a step, fell on my 3 inch heels and, sprained my ankle. Ta-da...

And there are guests around in the office can, how nice. With one being a certified doctor, who came to my rescue, and only know that he's a dental. But, he's still professional and makes logical advice to reduce the swell... Thanks Doc!

I cried badly cause it really hurts externally with my swollen ankle and internally, my half-failed heart.

How words can kill and how vicious can one be. Out of, Jealousy? Selfish? Or just pure updates that could kill without having a need to lift a knife?

Oh well, whoever you are. God bless, what comes around, goes around.

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 5:53 PM

Chilling out

Friday, March 6, 2009

It has been a while since we met up for a dinner that was so simple, yet heart-warming. It was a good thing that Golden Village ticketing counters were too packed that caused us to changed our plan, wasn't it?

We checked out the revamped Paradiz Center, hoping to get a good place for dinner but none fits (But there are still good dining places like Ju-Ju, Tao and HK style hotpot, but just not what we were looking for).

Spotted this Japanese Food court that could be easily mistaken as a restaurant from far. Prices were quite reasonable for a decent bowl of Ramen, Katsu etc. The only thing that led us back to the entrance was......... the 'grease' aka 'cooking' smell. It'll be like you have just attended a mini BBQ session after you are done with your meal.

Landed on the piece of 'familiar' yet 'far away' land, opposite our campus. When was the last that we attended school and waking each other up consistently? That was, at least 4 months back?

Anyway, we hopped into this dining cum KTV pub @ Selegie. Never knew it was a nice place, and atmosphere was kinda good. We spent almost 3+ hours in there from 8.30pm to 12am. Just the 2 of us... because, we get to eat, sing *live* and drink :D (Just how much CY was saying that she haven't sing for 'ages' on Wed - ahem, it was less than 1 month I think)

Food was not too bad, as it wasn't the main agenda of the night anyway.

We shared a main and 2 side dishes, along with a bottle of red wine:
Main: Mushroom wrapped in Chicken fillet with a splash of sweet creamy sauce, and mashed potatoes. It was a healthy dish and was not too oily.

Side: Spicy sausage & stuffed breaded mushrooms

Indulgence of the night caused a total bill of $90++. I didn't get to remember the name of the place but shall find out and update again.

The food was averaged price at a typical pub rate, and the drinks wasn't too expensive as you get 20% off any glass/15% off any bottle before 9pm. We got our bottle of wine before 9pm, and toasted till 12am.

Snoozed on bus and reached home after a few blinks :)

Enjoyed the companion, and thanks for being around to hear me out.
Things that I cannot tell, you always seemed to be able to understand.
Didn't reply your SMS as mobile's battery was emptied..

P.s. I knew you are semi-drunk that night. As every photo we took, you said you are pretty. No shame ar... OK la, I admit, some are pretty but not all. Then, you sang without following the lyrics and mumbled. Boo!

I chose the most pretty photo of you leh...

You asked once, twice and many a times if I was okay, I couldn't say no can I?
I really appreciated it as you do not have to care, logically.
I've thought through many times on what should be my answer...
and decided to still say no as I knew what I'll be hearing.
I'm used to counseling others and I know how you will say the same thing.

How am I supposed to talk in such case,
unless... you are my friend.
But so long as we're a team,
you'll never be able to be my friend.

Somethings, are really easier to be said than done.

At times I wondered what else could help...
Yes, it has been a while since I didn't.
I just couldn't explain why again.
Darn! What is so wrong... i guess, I'm not that strong after all~

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:11 PM

Time of the Month

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

It is the time of the month again, how could I endure it?

I am always very affected during this period. So frequent and consistent till I wondered if it was due to Pre-Menstrual Syndrome aka PMS, but I'm quite certain it's not. It just happened over and again till we are all numb.

I am not numb and was still very much affected every time as I go through this. Different exclamations, stories, feelings, sarcastic remarks, eyes rolling and complaints over and again. Explanations have been done so many times till I'm tired. Oh, exhausted I meant. Replies are at times too short, that makes me wonder if I'm just a messenger sent to hell.

Afraid I am, yes. To face you all...

But of course, I am glad to hear soft voices around me to say that it's alright, I understand, keep me posted, alright and thanks for informing.

It's no longer the same, i kept pondering.
How to recover everything and bring it back to the past?

Impossible as I am not doing a good job?
Or impossible as the person is no longer around?

I have no right to seek understanding and you have every right to grumble.

Can someone tell me it's not that bad after all and there are worst scenarios that I'm too young to even experience it?

I guess I'll feel better that way.

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 5:23 PM

Counting 'out'

Sunday, March 1, 2009

... out ...
... out ...
... out ...
... out ...
... out ...
... out ...

In a flash, 'it' will all be out by March... I'm not numb to everything but I cannot express. April will be a brand new month with everything being so, 'foreign'.

My personality has somehow, got used to being nonchalant about things.

The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 10:47 AM