Time flies and it's 1 Jan 2008 in a blink! Bidding goodbye to '07 and welcoming '08 has been a tough job for me. It is never easy to start afresh... Many told me to look forward to a better year, take a step forward to the brand new year, and leaving all my worries and unhappiness behind. I will definitely try hard to do so, but am I able to?! 2007 has been a fruitful year as well as a tiring year for me. As tiring as i wonder if I would still have the energy to move ahead with all the well-wishes. That is the year that I have gained lots of new experiences, tons of first time in my life, and countless ups-and-downs! It was never easy to move on and I'm really glad that, no matter what I've gone through, best advices and support would reach me whenever I'm deep down in the pit. No matter who you are, I'd really like to say a word of sincere "Thank you!" to you. Without you guys, I might have given up, I might have not stood up and I might be still dreaming. Thanks all! Really appreciated for all the advices and hands that have been reached out to me!
To everyone that have been with me, my sincere apologies if I have been unbearable those days. Thanks for being understanding, caring and around me, always!
Well, summary as follows for 2007 to end and set a closure for everything is definitely needed to start anew with a right set of attitude.
1. First CNY celebration in my new house!
2. First trip to China and stepped into Beijing and Weihai.
3. First experience in weather below 10 degree celcius.
4. First nude experience and being soak in mineral water with all other China lady - it was quite a bad experience... I bathed at least 3 times!
5. First time being an 'Ah Yi' upon the birth of my darling nephew - Travis!
6. First time to attend a function on a yatch - it was 'shaky'...
7. First mock exam which I might not do well with even a pass, but at least, I did tried my best...
Of course, the list could just continue especially with all the downtimes. However, I shall not mention for I choose to only remember the moon and the stars that shines high!
Now, for the year of 2008! I'm positive but my energy level is low... it always seems like there are numberless of task pending. Lesson's starting AGAIN, yet I did not do as per promised to read through the notes, multi-tasking and late nights has always been my companion, tons of projects right ahead to kick-start for 2008 and my personal life is screwed. It has been a while since i sat down to think through what I really wanted... and I mean it. Moving forward, I am still looking for that small little beam of light to bring me to the right path...
I desire for freedom, enlightenment and happiness... I yearn to spend more time with all the precious little ones around me, treasure what I have and I promise, to not indulge in work. As much as I hoped to have everything in place, as much as I hoped this will be a good year for everyone, I'm afraid - that my soul alone is not sufficient.
This is not a good blog, but I will strive for the best, with the hope that things will run smoothly. I'm worried, and still bringing along my worries with me... When can I let go?
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:58 PM