I hate to put on a mask everyday.
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 10:18 PM
Met up with CY today and poured all my grumbles and '委屈-ness' to her. Even she cannot understand why am I meeting people like that! Thanks dear for the listening ear and you'd have to 加油 as well.
I just don't get it when people can be such a BITCH. Think of others before you make any bitchy comments, I'm an employee not your pet BI..ATCH!.
We went DF today finally, after 3 weeks. Crowd was matured but funny by the way they behaved. Nothing comparable to their age but maybe, it's what that makes them happy? Relax, have fun and be crazy... but singers ain't that great which was a big disappointment. Didn't really like it and still prefer the sea with soothing waves and clear sky with starring stars. Heineken was bad and out of 6 bottles, CY finished almost 4 - Good job! Me? 1.5...
The journey to success is full of obstacles and at times, if the hurdles are too much to overcome... hold a friend in your hand and walk through it. We'll be fine.
I didn't hold back my tears today again... it's either too much or I felt unworthy.
3 months later, if you don't improve... it's either you or me.
Been getting news and hearing lies that turns me off... it's either yes or no.
Humans, just too complex.
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 2:50 AM
Kinda true... Wanna know it's calculation for who? Lala... Wanna try? But the article is too long. Try 新明日报,Oct 19.
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 1:27 AM
Lunch: Excelsior Hotel for Dim Sum buffet @ $15.90+++ per head.
Food was average but since it's buffet, it's definitely worth the money for volume seeker. But quality seeker, think twice before you step in.
Dinner: Gim Tian Restaurant at AMK
Followed by a few hours of afternoon nap at home from 5pm to 7pm, woke up and went for dinner. Food was alright and Wasabi Prawns is the subject of the entire course as it came as a surprise, plus the Chilli Crab as the next highlight with the ki-ki kok-kok, cracking and pulling.
Still, it was heart-warming but I was kinda tired and moodless so didnt talk much. As usual la... but it's always the crowd that matters.
We went on to Loyang to bai bai after that. I went back to thank all dieties for blessing me and letting me pass my Exam!
Additional request was that hoping they'll continue to 'look after' me, my tired and lost soul. I don't ask for more money or windfall, just a smooth riding journey. Promised them that I will walk through my life with pride, and overcome hurdles with confidence and not be disheartened easily for that's life. Easy to say but let's just hope that I do not give up upon hitting the challenges.
OH! Arghh... too much into the current turmoil that I forget to pray for wellness and health for mine and V's family >.<"
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 3:57 PM
Date: 18 Oct 2008
Time: 9.30am
Venue: Temple
Witnesses: Daddy and Mummy
Attendance: Private event (Invitation only)
Dress code: White
Finally, something happy to blog about: it's Sis ROM cum wedding day!
First encounter to attend a ROM in a temple with traditional practices.
Solemnization was witnessed by parents and conducted by a female FaShi.
It was simple yet official, with 'announced' responsibilities to hold onto each other's hand till eternity. The moment of love and commitment...
Congrats Sis, it was a long journey and you have made it, to another milestone of your life. 祝福你们恩恩爱爱， 白头偕老， 永远幸福！Happily ever after - 10, 20, 30... years down the road.
My darlings...
Marriage is a lifetime commitment that meant living together, understanding each other, holding on to each others' hand for the best or worst, in wealth or poverty, better or worst. It's really not just putting your name on the certificate. Happiness comes with responsibilities and I'm sure my Jie-fu can do it la... The smile on my sis face tells us so...
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:35 PM
Worked till 10.30 today... can u imagine? I only managed to complete one spreadsheet, sent few emails, do tomorrow's checklist and ya.. time to go home before I sleep on my desk. Could have done more but... better to be left unsaid. Lala... sian!
Went to Thomspon for dinner or rather, supper and finally reached home. Gave up my home-cooked food cos it's too damn late. Don't even feel like bathing with a strong urge to continue my work. But, I shall resist. Got 10am meeting tomorrow and haven't prepare anything cos of the better to be left unsaid. Damn. Wrong timing... Need to go office earlier to prepare.
I don't feel like seeing you... you turn me so off yet I have to smile. Get the hell out from my life and leave me alone will you?
I am not hardworking, I am under pressure with tons of things to do. I can't do delegation? I've got time management problem? I am getting such a good pay that I am giving up my life for it? NO! It's not even enough to buy a good bag after paying 6 bills and daily transport and meal expenses! I'm thinking thrice before I buy a dress or shoes! Alright, it's cash management here cos it's never sufficient. lalalaaaa...
Anyone to guide me how to get rich in 1 month and sustain it forever?
Life, boring as usual. Did not go class, tutorials, party, drink, gathering, chill nor basic dinners. Damn... not even shopping at bugis!
Forgive my damning but my life... ! I am already working very hard on myself and as smart as I can. I only freaking got 1 brain, 1 pair of eyes, 1 pair of hands and fucking 1 mouth! I got my family, studies, work, friends and damned social life to make life complete. I can't think of everything and help to solve? HR got its way I know, it's my job I know but HR is a human, I'm premature and childish I think!
Just as it is, enough of shit i think. Saying is always very easy without even thinking...
I am nothing but a what? When you are down I'm there, when you are up I'm fucking just a boring person. I am not getting peanuts to shake leg, I'm going nuts and CAN you please do not take me for granted ! ................ basically, I just so need to scream!
Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:54 PM
For my close friends, you all know I'm in HR line and I'm beginning to 'dislike' it. Not hating my profession but having second thoughts... used to:
- look forward to...in the past
- enjoy what I do...in the past
- confident of what I do...in the past
- to take up challenges...in the past
- crack my braincells for changes...in the past
- think that everything is possible...in the past
- believe that a solution is always tagged for a problem...in the past
Read my blog postings and I think I'll get into depression real soon. There isn't a happy occasion to cheer about?
I am so disheartened - How......................................................
I'm like taking and running with too many balls till I'm losing one by one... Not that I'm overloaded but kinda losing my focus. I know I have to get back right up and kick start everything but, I'm lacking of something.
I'm not procrastinating here, I'm doing something in fact but I can't do miracles. Yet I know if my head don't crack, nothing's going to get started!
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 12:12 AM
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:47 PM
Just Fine, by Mary J.Blige
You know I love music
And every time I hear something hot
It makes me wanna move
It makes me wanna have fun
But it’s something about this joint right here
This joint right here
Its makes me wanna…..Woooh
Let it go……
Can’t let this thing called love get away from you
Feel free right now, going do what you want to do
Can’t let nobody take it away, from you, from me, from we
No time for moping around, are you kidding?
And no time for negative vibes, cause I’m winning
It’s been a long week, I put in my hardest
Gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right
So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine
Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Keep your head up high
In yourself, believe in you, believe in me
Having a really good time, I’m not complaining
And I’m a still wear a smile if it raining
I got to enjoy myself regardless
I appreciate life, I’m so glad I got mine
So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
Aint worried about you and what you gonna do
I’m a lady so I must stay classy
Got to keep it hot, keep it together
If I want to get better
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine
I aint gon’ let nothing get in my way
(I ain't gone let nobody bring me down, no, no, no)
No matter what nobody has to say
(No way, no way, no way)
I ain’t gon’ let nothing get in my way
No matter what nobody has to say
Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
It’s a really good thing to say
That I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine
So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I ain’t gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 9:50 PM
Pondering and wondering...
I have been finding ways to improve anything and everything that I can. However, it is really tough to manage.
I've looked at almost everything that I am aware of and that I can at least, try to put it at a better situation. However, time is needed for solutions and changes to be implemented. My knowledge and ability is really limited and getting on my nerves.
Getting disheartened, or rather, am already very disheartened where everything seems to be not under my control.
I am hearing and seeing all sorts of things and happenings that are not within what I can do. What should I do? I am trying my best already...
So lost... tomorrow's another day of firefighting~
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 7:24 PM
I want a break, a break to somewhere to let my hair down.
Tried to go out on Thursday, failed.
Tried to go out on Friday, failed.
Gave up today and stayed at home. Rotted and yes, there it goes... my Saturday with lotsa eating and sleeping.
Just let me be... leave me alone.
I can't club, I can't drink, I can't go out and I can't even listen to music.
My life, full of restrictions and commitments. Damn it!
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:49 PM
'好事'连连? 接二连三?
It's so gonna be a nightmare and it's really heart aching and disappointing. Everything... will be *_ _ _ _* soon. (gone/over/done/fine?)
How much can I take and how long can I manage?
How strong am I? To be frank, I am not strong... but I'm just moving on.
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:54 PM
Finally... a holiday!
MJ-ed with the girls on PH eve till wee hours like - 5am, and I won!
Tiring cause I got up at 10am soon after the MJ session as I'm the nanny of the house today. Parents went out as I offered my help so that they can go out, not that they 'throw' Travis to me. He-he! Didn't want them to stay at home as they hardly got a chance to go out together.
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Babysitting day!
The entire thing was like... really energy consuming but still manageable.
Good thing V came over and play with him in the morning. Else, I have to 'peek-a-boo' with BB for the whole day. We took a ride out to Upper Pierce in the late noon to visit the wild monkeys.
1st time I was in a car and looking at the monkeys in close distance. The past incidents with the monkeys were always running away from them while trekking the way up hill. A whole new experience~
We walked around and it was a sunny yet windy day. Niceeee... BB was clapping his hands throughout but looking tired cause I bathe him before going out. He used to need to sleep after bathing, and mum always says bathing is akin to swimming for an infant :p
Brought him for dinner at V's mum place at 5pm and he fell asleep on the journey back, and went over to V's dad place at 8pm till 10plus. He has definitely had so much fun till he was so unwilling to sleep! Reached home at 11pm and he was still playing at 12am. Made him some milk as he would always need to drink milk first (um, i used milk powder ok) so that he could sleep. But he continued to play after he finished it, and oh man... he was closing his eyes while standing up, crawling and smirking throughout.
Zzzz... Finally decided to swing him to sleep using the 'yao yao' and he snored within seconds. Parents came back shortly after that and handover-ed. Wondering where was V when I'm trying to coax BB to sleep? He's already snoring on my bed... how unfair to sleep earlier than me and on my bed, argh!
Honey dreams - my turn to sleep.
(Waving white flag already - the next day, is a working day duh...)
Thanks dear for accompanying and 'helped' to take care of BB for the day. For driving us around, and all the effort that have been done, I forgive you for sleeping earlier than me... Muacks!
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 12:55 AM
