I can't sleep again.
Decided to use Sis's laptop to transfer photos from mobile via 'bluetooth'. Check out previous blogs for missing photos :)
While sending the files, I was kinda amazed by the technology. How can a photo be sent from a mobile to a laptop, through 'bluetooth' within secs. Man... how clever!
WARNING: This entry gonna's get lengthy.
Stop here if you don't wanna hear me whine.'1st' day back at work after 3 days of nua-ing and recuperating at home. We talked about it, and tears dropped. Bloody useless, can't hold back tears. Think I can't take too much TLC and an overdose might kill... partly because I'm very confused. Damn... knew this coming 2 years back, too naive and forgot that there is nothing called 'forever'. I guess, I just wanted to let go of everything and get a life.I'm selfish and just wanna have a happier life while I can, can?But I know it's not possible, it's my commitment...
I need to grow up... but I've got no wish to!
Didn't one get a job to achieve something?
Apart from pay, don't you wish for happiness, satisfatory and growth?
But how come one is never happy about the pay, always unhappy, always feels that the job is boring with slow growth?
Personnally, yes! Pay does matter but not the first priority. If not, those who know me, I'd have left the job anytime earlier with all sorts of super-covering. I see growth and job satisfaction. But the most important factor is I don't see or even feel happiness?
I don't feel good doing so many exits, and hearing everyone saying that they are unhappy with this, that... here there. It makes me feel really useless and why can't I do anything to aleviate their stress.
I hear different stories, complains and see frowns everywhere. People cursing and swearing, grumbling and saying how much one doesn't understand another. One affecting another and the cycle went on...
Where are the laughters that we used to have?
Where are the jokes that we throw each other at?
Where are the understanding that I first see?
Where are the every single little things that matters?
I am not giving up becuase I am overwhelmed.
I am giving up for I can't seem to make a difference and improve things.
Every single complains that I prevent makes me a whole load happier.
But whole load of complains make me singled out everyone...
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 2:27 AM