It is the time of the month again, how could I endure it?
I am always very affected during this period. So frequent and consistent till I wondered if it was due to Pre-Menstrual Syndrome aka PMS, but I'm quite certain it's not. It just happened over and again till we are all numb.
I am not numb and was still very much affected every time as I go through this. Different exclamations, stories, feelings, sarcastic remarks, eyes rolling and complaints over and again. Explanations have been done so many times till I'm tired. Oh, exhausted I meant. Replies are at times too short, that makes me wonder if I'm just a messenger sent to hell.
Afraid I am, yes. To face you all...
But of course, I am glad to hear soft voices around me to say that it's alright, I understand, keep me posted, alright and thanks for informing.
It's no longer the same, i kept pondering.
How to recover everything and bring it back to the past?
Impossible as I am not doing a good job?
Or impossible as the person is no longer around?
I have no right to seek understanding and you have every right to grumble.
Can someone tell me it's not that bad after all and there are worst scenarios that I'm too young to even experience it?
I guess I'll feel better that way.
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 5:23 PM