Internal change:
Again, I'm caught in a situation that I had 2 years ago.
Thinking back, did I regret? Nope, I did not. Although it has no extrinsic value, it was a fruitful experience. Perhaps, I was still young, (naive?) and did not care more about what's going on in the world. Youth is what I have and I could do anything so long as satisfaction is gained. I enjoyed and missed those 3 months.
Looking forward and given the same choice, I rejected.. I've grown to realize that things are no longer the same. What u decide today will determine your future. I messed up my own life twice by, not being mature to consider all other foreseeable situations. This time, I took 3 weeks to sort my thoughts and totally scared to commit.
Today, I'm putting up in my blog... if it's a mistake again, I'll learn from it as I've really tried my best. It wasn't a hasty decision for sure. At times... I really needed a mentor to show me some light.
Today, I know if I have to work doubly hard. To fall and bring myself up. To figure ways to motivate myself...
Ultimate aim? I have to take a new light after my exam, into the basic and reality. As I really cannot survive by believing 'I know, you know and you will'...
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 12:10 AM