This playground has been under your control all these while, at least 75% and you choose to give it up today. I understand, accept and respect your decision, with appreciation of the effort that you have made for the past few months. I've tried to persuade but it seems like I need a miracle for it to work. I knew you tried and put in your best, but if it's gonna be done in the dark, no one will know till you explain as we don't get to see the background. The so called 'ugly bunch' of flowers may take the Florist to: Trim the stalks, cut into different lengths, remove the thorns, match the colors from wrapper to ribbons, arranging sunflowers with roses and lilies with nice little 'forget-me-not' and 满天星 to become a big bouquet. Every single effort and thoughts made yearned to be appreciated too. No one will fault anyone for blaming it to be ugly, but won't the florist gets devastated if he knows that it was said to be ugly, and not even a "Thank You" at all? The world is round; what goes around, comes around depending on how sensitive one is for any remarks made. At very least, we still get to work for the next 1 month or so... I'll treasure these times. Meanwhile, I'll pray for miracle to happen! Surprises does pop by my life once in a while...
Communications is indeed the key to success and most of the problems arises due to a lack of it.
I'm not perfect at communications too, but I'll try to explain myself out of the situation to seek understanding for any imperfection and improve on. Busy was never an excuse for anything but a tool to gather more time. But shouldn't we communicate to others while buying time for the deadline so that nobody will be lost in the process?
Things are not always self-explanatory and at times, people don't care so long as they don't hear announcements?
There's nothing I can do, to make you comfortable if I cannot get your support and involvement. It was great knowing and working with you as a team, talking things out but at times, I do get uncomfy as you are too smart a person to work with.
It's uncomfortable when I need to stay 90% awake, making sure that I speak for the right person, right issue and nothing bias nor 'wrong' to ensure that I do not get rebutted. Should I use the word argumentative? It's tiring, and I'm learning everyday on how to be tactful with my words and resolve conflicts and unhappiness via the easier method - communicate.
I never had problems working with you and it has been a joy in fact to see that we are 'better off'. I respected your knowledge, exposure, the 'never give in' attitude and the ability to enforce rules and regulations. I understand that, that's only your front in order to get things on the right path, but... on the other hand, I'm facing issues when other misunderstood you, trying to explain on your behalf and passing messages. Argh, I know if you read this, you'll tell me, "don't try, not needed"! - I think you're tired too...
Guess, it didn't start off right as it was really a case of a once bitten, twice shy. Let alone, it's the third time. Trust, relationship building and teamwork didn't not happen overnight with the rest and things continued to sour when majority tend to leave things as it was... little tried.
Oh well, at least I tried. It has been a good game for the past few months and I believed, I learnt something out from here again. To be better protected, situational aware, speak up, be firm and knowledgeable in order to gain bargaining power.