January - Started the month with lots and mixtures of feelings. I admit, I'm overwhelmed at work and I'm burnout. To the extend that I no longer know what I am doing and at the stage of giving up. I started off with a clear goal, knowing where to move on, what to achieve and how to attain everything. It has been a year plus and different things happened daily and different experiences are gained every other day. Motivation dies off, passion disappeared and the energy in me dipped as fast as the winter temperature. This is not good, I know and I have been trying hard to stand up and get back on my feet. However, no matter how much I do, how hard I work to get the things done, how positive I think and how I tried to persuade myself, I just can't do it. The things that are coming in are thrice as fast as each outgoing task. I no longer know how to continue and what are the things that I can do to revive every other things.
My eyes are teary somehow... I am not giving up yet my heart told me to. I cant fight back with reasons as I felt that I am lying to myself. When others say, why persist? I replied with a good positive stand, but when I am alone, when I recall and think through the questions, I started asking myself too. "why?", "Is there a need?", "Is that what I really wanted?"... Is this a common phase for everyone to go through? Am I just unlucky or it's just life? I'm lost... as lost as I am, I am still fighting. BUT... am i doing it right?
Gonna be alone for the next 6 months, and I'll be missing you... 
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:15 PM