After what has happened the past few weeks, I am really not in the mood to celebrate my birthday. I am not feeling well, been feeling giddy and felt like fainting and thus, was on MC on this fateful day; 9 January 2008. How undesirable... There was also a strong urge to escape from reality, I had no wish to face nor strength to overcome it, Yes~ I am still affected by the previous incident.
CY was really nice to suggest that we should meet up, skip lesson and have a good dinner on my birthday. It has been decided way before, and frankly speaking, I've tried all means and excuses to cancel many a times, but she insisted on meeting. Knowing that I would be at home, and that I am feeling really down, she just want to make sure that I am OK, and happy on my birthday. WS came over, met me for my change of bank application for my interbank GIRO and Dad's car insurance renewal. Headed to East Coast Resort to check out information for his gf's birthday party, and then, fetched CY for dinner at Pasir Ris. Decided to leave for East Coast and settled for dinner at Waraku, not fantastic but okay.
CY got a bowl of Ebi Udon, which she ate only half. (the bowl is BIG, two times her face size). Appetite was really not good, and only ordered Sushi, Chawamushi and Aga Deshi Tofu to share... Tried raw Tuna for the first time, not very nice! It feels like raw minced meat. There were also Octopus and raw Tuna with RAW mini egg, which WS has to eat since CY and I would not ever dare to try that~ Dinner was overall good, except for some weird moments as CY and WS met for the first time. Topics were limited and entertaining... Talked about everything, from work to personal, to business and crapppp! Thanks for the companion, your presence alone is sufficient and appreciated!
Had a struggle with CY trying to plan where to go after dinner. Finally, we decided to head to East Coast park, as I really need some fresh air, stars starring, and sea breezing. Whenever I am unhappy, the strong urge to hear the sea waves, feel the breeze, count the stars and stare at the sky would always be there... It makes me happier for that moment, and realized that the world is beautiful after all. Chatted with CY for the longest time, on everything that we can think of, it was a beautiful night that brought us closer once again... Work is one of the topic, which we spur each other, to move on and work harder, console and support each other as well as pour out all our woes to the border-less sea, for it to bring it away with the waves. Family too, we shared the common issues encountered and unlock the mystery of human wonders, with many unknown. We are still young I guess... Never know what the adults are thinking. Next comes money, relationship and studies...
True enough - When silence sets in, one should not feel uncomfortable if your partner is a close friend of yours... with CY, I would never feel weird. When silence sets in, we understand, and never have to worry that we have nothing to talk about.
My friends, I have received your messages. Thanks for making the effort for all the greetings and well-wishes.
My colleagues, I know you girls are too busy to remember. The daily care and concern are already more than anything. Thanks for being there, and always on the look out and checking on me whenever I am 'abnormal'. Every "You are OK?, "Don't stress", "Take it with stride", "You can do it". "Think carefully" and "Good Luck" etc are already wonderful gifts that I've received subconciously!
Grand official opening date for Terminal 3, 9 January 2008, 21 years after my birth. Way to go and all the best!
To you, Thanks for all the support and messages. Though you are not with me on this day, I know that you cared. Do not worry about me... Every obstacles, challenges, problems, sadness, and tears dropped, will make me a better person!
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 3:35 AM