Had a lunch appointment with my fellow colleagues at Swissotel. It was a last minute lunch arrangement on the day before by K. Six person in all... Lunch was intensive which I didn't really enjoy.
Topics and conversations were 'flying swords' that attacked dear S most of the times. I know it's hurtful, but it's needed to be brought across in order for one to learn. Work hard and you will be free from it... Work was being discussed 80% of the time with 60% of follow-up needed. Just imagine, and I kinda dread it as I thought it was a lunch for bonding, chit-chatting, gathering etc, but it turned out to be so otherwise.
Best is, it turned out to be a belated and advance birthday celebration for E and I respectively when a cake appeared on the table. It was a strawberry short-cake, from a well-known bakery. Though not picky, cream is definitely not in my list due to up and going weighing scale. All in all, thanks K for all the arrangement, from arranging for the lunch, to getting the cake and effort to plan. Sad to say, I am appreciative towards the planning...but in a way or another I'm disappointed by the 'agenda'?
Well... heck! I am used to disappointment, aren't I? It has happened once, and a 2nd time means no harm to me anymore. I am an easy going person, if nothing has been done, I'm still fine and perfectly happy with it. I do not like big bangs nor hu-ha! Believe me, I'm not saying that the grapes are sour just because I can't have it. I do not expect anything but please do not do something and leave me a bad impression or memory to take back with? This kind of feeling is madness...
I am not happy and it's not right to have such a birthday lunch to recall or share with when one asked what was being done during your birthday? Shall I just answer a late lunch with lots of topic on work, and tasks over a lunch post 'celebration'? I guess, a kopi-tiam dinner with a plate of Chicken Rice with my buddies would leave me a better memory. Come to think of it, I should have kept quiet and move on with life. Why keep harping on something which will make me upset for 60sec? I should just make myself happy for that 1 min. Food was average, and I guess... it's the companion? I am not picky but I don't find it nice and will not recommend anyone one to try out the food.
K and S both did a DIY birthday card for me, and it was good enough... Thanks!
I know you are reading and felt unworthy for me, but no worries. I know what I am doing, who is good to me and who is taking me for granted. Please do not feel that my work life sucks as I do have wonderful colleagues and friends around me. I will not talk about the things that I do not want to remember and I will wake up daily, to be glad that I am alive and healthy. Though I'm not wealthy, but I am richer then many others in the world.
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 11:29 AM