I hasn't really been myself for the past few days and weeks. It's simply retarded, especially today. I was really not in the mood for anything, not even making an effort to smile and greet someone. It was bad I know but my mood was really down. I have no idea why was it so but it's accumulative of everything I could say. Best part was, of all days, I had to fall today. It was quite a bad fall with scratches and blue-blacks, and tears flow just by looking at the injury. Call me weak, it's not that pain but it's the sadness and pain. My dear colleagues was so worried, and chased me home. I've got unfinished work to do, how can I? Bruises surfaced late in the evening and it's ugly. Sigh... how can I wear dresses with such ugly scars. Got to be on MC for sure tomorrow, it's starting to swell.
My MSN nick says it all... I'm really hurt this time. It was mentally at the initial stage and it's definitely both mentally and physically now. Reasons for being mentally down was not by relationship problem, nor studies or work issues. It's just the people I guess! Everything is fine and I believe I can cope with stress level or even tons of work. It's the 'people' that I don't understand... It has been a while since I am having this downtime. I have tried ways and various means to get myself out of this situation, but every time, I'll just fail and get back to the same spot.
I hated the word appreciate... for no one will appreciate you on the things and effort you do and put in. When one appreciates, it's when one starts to lose. I don't understand, why must it be this way? Can't you just treasure and see the importance of what is around, instead of waiting till you are beginning to lose it? I'm still learning...
The heart's cold, it's just another beautiful mistake. 10:56 PM